Wednesday, July 15, 2009

so, i might be a lil' bit jealous...

hm... previously, this was what i said basically... am happy to be single, enjoy making new friends, meet new people, anticipate the unexpected turn of event around the corner and bla... bla...bla... well, maybe that anticipation is a lil bit overdue... and i might be a lil bit losing my patience here... i mean, yeah, i've been hearing this way before, ever since matrix, that patience is bitter while its result is sweet, but damn, i have to repeat what i once wrote in my journal... that patience is playing on my nerves now, very bitterly...
the right guy might come along... or might not... shall i wait forever? or shall i settle with the second best? damn... i don't even know who the hell is the second best... not that sure anymore, anyway...
so, here goes... another friend of mine is getting married this august... she's this quiet girl in class, always smiling ever so sweetly, but never say a word that could be defined as nonsense...she's this kind of quiet girl who you'll never think would get married so easily, but, well, she will... nice... congrats to her... which brought me to think...
i was considered the loud girl in class, basically, the obnoxious one who tend to do things that drew people's attention, whether it was something likable or not... damn, how i wish i knew how to keep my mouth shut, or to be a bit more subdued or reserved or even quiet...
but then, that wouldn't be me... and i'm happy with the fact that i know who i am and how i am and happy with it...
now, then, why am i jealous of that quiet, nice girl?hah, yeah, because she's getting married, and i'm not...
nice, and i have to admit i'm not even ready to get married. i don't even know how to cook, for God's sake, and i'm jealous of my friend who's getting married!
it kind of twisting my mind for a bit... maybe i'm having a hormonal imbalance rite now... i might laugh my head off reading this later and delete it, but here goes... contradictory to what i wrote in june (i think,)i am jealous of my friends who are married...
there, it's out of my head... laugh your head off, now, i know you want to... till i do the same and delete this, ciao!!

2 comments:

  1. Hi girl,
    Found ur blog somewhere.. hope u don't mind me reading.. kind of reminds me of my life while I was ur age :)

    hey.. have fun yeah while u r still single.. u will realise later that u can't really do many things after u r married.. so do it now while u can :)

    and remember this, girl, grass always *looks* greener at the other side *wink*

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  2. hello... thank you for reading, i don't know why i did't reply to your comment right away.. sorry about that, and no, i don't mind you reading.. :)
    yeah, the grass is definitely, always seem to be greener on the other side. but, we should be grateful we do have a patch of grass on our side after all, right? if u know what i mean. have to be grateful of what we have. God gives different blessing to different person. life is better, after a while and i learn a great lesson.. thank God.. and thank you for your comment, again.. :)

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