i'm lazy these days...

yeah... i am lazy these days... yawning almost every half an hour... when i'm at work, i'm missing my bed at home so terribly, i fell asleep on the desk and woke from a dream... a dream!! i mean, who the heck sleep @ work sampai mimpi2??
i'm lazy 2 write too... the ideas came slowly these days, have to read back what i wrote over and over and over baru boleh kinda peram idea baru.. tu pun tak banyak...
first project still stuck @ epilog... second one stuck @ the sad turn of event... third one stuck @ separation... forth one stuck everywhere...
so, basically, i'm stuck... and when i'm stuck @ what i love 2 do, i feel down... and when i feel down, i don't have the mood to do anything else... and when i don't have the mood 2 do anything else, i become lazy... and when i become lazy, i yearn to just sleep and sleep and sleep the day through... but i can't... because i have to go 2 work...
have to physically and mentally force myself to swing those skinny legs over the side of the bed, walked staggeringly to the bathroom and have a bath, put on clothes, sit at the driver's seat and drive my car for 40-45 minutes to work... and almost always, when i'm in the ground of the hospital, i'll start yawning...heh... until the end of that day... and the cycle repeats itself tomorrow... aahh, so lazy la, what 2 do??
i need a holiday... coming soon, yeah, insya Allah... can't wait...
but till then,i'm still physically and mentally forcing myself... aiyo!!not good, not good... but what a girl gotta do??